i miss you (warning: senti overload!)

reading this beautiful post gave me a peculiar kind of heartache. i so wish i could write something like this, but for me, it's all about friendships i lost, to twin demons of time and distance. one would think that a person with a memory as terrible as mine (ghajini's inspired by me, i think :P) i'd learn to forget and move on. but my memory isn't missing, it's just perverse.

half these people wouldn't read this, the other half wouldn't care. but well...

ST, i miss moi "best friend for forever". i miss dance practice. i miss fighting with you over the right steps. i miss the laughter. i miss those sleepovers and "i am telling this to you ONLY and this shouldn't go further". oh, and i miss your lunchbox :P

losing you, just because of the distance, was HARD.

RB, i miss you, my girlfriend. the blown kisses across the classroom. the "do hell with the guys, hum hai na ek dusre ke liye" and similar (and inane-er) cheesy dialougues. i miss your non-judgemental listening and the "babe, i understand." i haven't even met you for the last two years, and it still makes me sad.

RH, i miss those binges after tuitions. and those LONG written conversations when bio/chem/physics/math classes got sleep-inducingly boring. i still meet you cause you come to bangalore often, but something's missing. i suppose wishing the camaraderie lasted unchanged was hoping for a bit too much :)

AS, my almost twin. i miss the guy gossip. i miss us completing each others' sentences. i miss dreaming dreams together. i even miss you yelling at others and me getting panicky and trying to calm you down :P i can't tell you how weird it felt to meet you this time and spending most of the meeting in silence. when did the gossip dry up?

TK, i miss you, little guy. even though you emptied my pockets every single time we ate out (you're the reason that even now a guy offering to pay for me induces disbelief :P) even though your abuses were colourful enough to make me shut my ears and scram. even though i always felt you never cared the same way i did. now, no conversation left, and the old jokes are, well, old.

AA, i could write a whole post, and probably more, about you. about how i thought we had a really special friendship. about our "non-couple couple" status. about those insanely long phone conversations. about how we laughed, cried, made up. about how i secretly enjoyed your possessiveness. those hugs. holding hands. when you abruptly moved away after committing to S ( i really don't get the whole deal with people getting committed and abandoning old friends), i was devastated. it took me more than a year to come to terms with it. and the memories still hurt. and try as i might, i can never stop loving you. how stupid can i be?

SG, should i even include you as a friend? you're my longest running crush ( FIVE years! man!!) and i can't remember the last time we agreed on anything. neither can i remember a non-sarcastic you. neither, for that matter, have i ever got you to admit we're even friends. you'd laugh/roll your eyes/make a rude comment if i tell you the number of times i've replayed every single meeting in my head. and how much i miss you when i don't get to talk to you. but, well, it's the truth. live with it :P

jeez, what a pointless post.